Grief . . .
All of this is such new territory for me.  It is not like disappointment at all.  It goes to your core, leaving an indescribable ache. 

I appreciate greatly the several women who have written me, women who have experienced similar losses offering to be a comforting shoulder.  Once the business slows down, you may actually receive a phone call or email from me. 

Right now, I remain tired—it is like a heavy weight is on my back.  The burden of conflicting emotions and providing normalcy for my family makes me weary at times.  I am thankful for my amazing family, for they understand the Gospel.  I found there words encouraging: Let me assure you that in our helplessness and weakness the saints out in the ether pain for you and grieve this loss about 1/100^th of your grief, but are sincere nonetheless.  The Holy Spirit urges us to write and reach out to you from the unknown and to pray for you in the dark.  But it is Christ that comforts us all; it is Aslan that guides the boat.”  I do read and am thankful for every letter, email, and Internet post. 

The Funeral . . .
Dustin’s funeral was an amazing time of worship and remembrance.  A group of about 650-700 people gathered to say goodbye to our dear friend.  If you weren’t able to attend the service or just want to know Dustin better, audio from Dustin’s sermons and the service/remembrances can be found on Fort Worth PCA’s front page at http://fortworthpca.org.  I know that sometime soon, materials will also be available on Redeemer’s website. 

This month’s issue of Table Talk is on grief.  I am thankful for my closest friends who have sheltered me during this storm.  I am thankful for all of you fellow mourners and the word of God—help my unbelief.